I have to be up in a little over three hours. Christmas morning starts between 6 and 7 for a 3 year old. Tonight I wrapped gifts and I had dinner with my family. I facetimed someone that makes me ridiculously happy. But I also fought with someone I used to think I cared a… Continue reading Christmas doesn’t feel like Christmas
Category: Life After Loss
Dusty
if love were enough; if love could have saved you, you would have lived forever My sweetest boy, it broke my heart to say goodbye to you. I knew the time would eventually come, but I don't think I ever would have been ready. For 16 years, you were the always the constant in my… Continue reading Dusty
lately
As is the case for most people, 2020 has been on hell of a ride. This year has been absolutely bananas for me, for so many reasons. I realize I haven't written anything since the anniversary of Chelsea's death back in April, and it's honestly because life has been an absolute shit show. So I… Continue reading lately
for liam
we were so little when we met. i had no idea at the time that you would have such an impact on my life, or that you would become such an important person to me later in life. i wish i had known time was limited. i wish i had known then that every breath… Continue reading for liam
One Year
Unbelievable that you’ve been gone for a whole year. Today is the one year anniversary of the worst day of my entire life. Chels, There are five million things I have missed about you every.single.day. of the last year. Life still doesn’t make sense without you. It never will. I’ll love you and miss you… Continue reading One Year
eight years
It's been eight years since I've been able to hear your voice, see that incredible smile, and look into your eyes. As I type that, it seems insane. It feels like a lifetime. I used to come to you for almost everything. You or Chels. Now you're both gone and I'm here without you. Now… Continue reading eight years
Greyson
if love were enough; if love could have saved you, you would have lived forever I share a lot about the loss I've endured in my life, and specifically, my best friend Chelsea, whom I lost to metastatic breast cancer. Exactly one year ago next month, in fact. It's crazy that it's been almost an… Continue reading Greyson
Hard Days
Things have been really rough lately. I know it has been quite a while since I've written, but I've promised myself that I will start again. I'll update soon. Stay tuned.
domain name change
I wanted to let my followers know that I recently changed my blogs domain name from https://iflovewasenough20315611.wordpress.com to https://iflovewereenough.wordpress.com I have been informed that when my followers are trying to access this blog from "new post" emails, sometimes it takes them to my old domain name and it looks like I have deleted my blog. I… Continue reading domain name change
an upsetting memory wall
Lately, or for the last 6-ish months, I have been almost entirely consumed by my grief for Chelsea. I would feel bad about it, but I think Tim understands. I think he knows that after he died I was left with just one of my two people, so it was that much harder losing her.… Continue reading an upsetting memory wall
if love were enough 