Christmas · grief · Life After Loss · Sadness

Christmas doesn’t feel like Christmas

I have to be up in a little over three hours. Christmas morning starts between 6 and 7 for a 3 year old. Tonight I wrapped gifts and I had dinner with my family. I facetimed someone that makes me ridiculously happy. But I also fought with someone I used to think I cared a… Continue reading Christmas doesn’t feel like Christmas

Chronic Illness · Chronic Pain · dark and twisty · depression · fighting depression · gratitude · grief · healing · Illness · Life After Loss · losing hope · Medical Conditions · mental health · moving forward · neurosurgery · Spinal Surgery


As is the case for most people, 2020 has been on hell of a ride. This year has been absolutely bananas for me, for so many reasons. I realize I haven't written anything since the anniversary of Chelsea's death back in April, and it's honestly because life has been an absolute shit show. So I… Continue reading lately