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lately

As is the case for most people, 2020 has been on hell of a ride. This year has been absolutely bananas for me, for so many reasons. I realize I haven't written anything since the anniversary of Chelsea's death back in April, and it's honestly because life has been an absolute shit show. So I… Continue reading lately

death · Death and Dying · grief · healing · heartbreak · Life After Loss · moving forward · moving on · TAC · Tim

eight years

It's been eight years since I've been able to hear your voice, see that incredible smile, and look into your eyes. As I type that, it seems insane. It feels like a lifetime. I used to come to you for almost everything. You or Chels. Now you're both gone and I'm here without you. Now… Continue reading eight years

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another surgery

So I had another back surgery the other day. It was the WORST one that I have ever had, and that's compared to two spinal fusions, three laminectomies, and two discectomies. I had a spinal cord stimulator implanted. Back in December I had the trial done, and it was so awful. In addition to being… Continue reading another surgery

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Greyson

if love were enough; if love could have saved you, you would have lived forever I share a lot about the loss I've endured in my life, and specifically, my best friend Chelsea, whom I lost to metastatic breast cancer. Exactly one year ago next month, in fact. It's crazy that it's been almost an… Continue reading Greyson